Seasons. You either love them or you hate them. I’m the one that hates them. Most of the seasons of my life have been long and brought challenges that I had to dig deep. There’s nothing I loved more than imagining the end of it and the joy that it would bring. But what’s happening right now?
I’m a daydreamer. My thoughts are consumed with the things as I feel like they should be and what’s to come. I get anxious with the now and search for the new thing. The right now stresses me out, to be honest. The right now isn’t perfect and sometimes there’s nothing you can do about it. But the right now is where God has you.
This is Right Now
I’m not one to put trust in the process, which is why the now makes me anxious. The thing is that now isn’t bad. But I’m always thinking about something else. The past, the future, but never right now. Everything lately reminds me of the fact that I just need to focus on what’s in front of me right now. Unhappiness comes from thinking about the way things used to be or how you believe they should be.
It’s hard to live in the now when your eyes aren’t focused on God and what He has called you to do at this moment. The right now may not be the ideal place you want to be. It may be painful, boring, or you might not even see anything happening. Truthfully, we feel this way on our own because we’re not trusting God. Every step in our life has a purpose, even the ones we don’t seem to care about. Right now isn’t a stumbling block, it’s a step.
Isaiah 43:18-19 stood out to me, “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” God is sill going to do something, we just need to learn to let Him do His thing instead of trying to see life how we want it.