I’ve always been pretty open about my relationship with God and how that’s going. I’ve been on a journey dealing with a season of dryness and trying to see what God wanted me to do. It’s been hard, not going to lie. About a year ago I felt like I was running on empty. Then Zoe Conference God told me to take a leap of faith and here I am. God can do a lot in a year. I’ve learned a lot about myself and who God is.
God Can Do a Lot in a Year
If you would’ve told me a year ago where I would be right now I wouldn’t have believed you. Life felt like it had no purpose and then one day God turned that all around. At Zoe Conference, I felt God again. It was the first time in a while since I felt His presence. Here is when I finally heard God tell me to step out of my comfort zone and do something that I had in my heart but I was pushing off. Maybe it was the post-conference tiredness but I decided to do something crazy.
Finding a church was one of the hardest things for me for a long time. Regardless of how many I would attend, I never felt like a place was home. It honestly stressed me out a lot. Yet I remember feeling like I had to go to Hillsong OC. It was weird but I remember the day after conference signing up to volunteer and honestly didn’t think I would hear back. A day later I got a text to be in LA that Sunday and it just started a whirlwind of a journey.
The most important thing I got from this year is growth. I’m a prideful, arrogant person and that was a tough pill to swallow. I realized that my relationship with God was nowhere where it should’ve been. One of the things I love about Hillsong is that we have so many prayer meetings and how much they want people to actually pray not just nod their heads. But that challenged me a lot. That became a big part of this past year. I don’t know it all and I don’t have all the skills. There is someone out there that can do all these things better. It just humbled me in so many ways. A true humbling where I realized that I am nobody but God is graceful and I only serve for Him and not my ego.
In this past year, I have loved harder than I have before, trusted God in the middle of the biggest unknowns, and came to the biggest sense of peace that I have ever felt. For once in my life, I feel like I’m on a real learning journey.
Life is not at all what I thought it would be but I’m glad that God still gives me grace. This year was a turning point in so many ways and it came at the right time. God is good all the time.