I feel like I always try to be as transparent as I can on my blog. I’ve talked about my uncertainty after college and focusing on needing to be joyful. I think overall, my struggles are about trying to find my place and spot in the world. Here’s the thing, as much as I am grateful for what I have right now, at this moment, it’s nowhere where I imagined my life being. Instead of changing it, I settled and became bitter.
I know the dry season too well, but I felt like this season is different. This was more of me being frustrated with God for not putting me where I saw myself. So while I was here pretending to be Rapunzel singing, “When Will My Life Begin?” I was the one that was making things worse. I thought this was it. I would just live an average, quiet life and that would be all. Like, that was it. Life happened and nothing else would. I graduated from college, I have a job, there’s nothing more. I felt tired so that’s it.You can always begin again. God's plans are always bigger. Click To Tweet
But then one day out of the nowhere, I felt something stirring in me telling me to begin again. Not pack up my life and move to a new town with a new name. But more of realizing God is not done yet. I have hope for my life still. Although it’s scary, I have to trust God and His plans for me. Then this verse got to me:
A final word: Be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. | Ephesians 6:10, NLT
Whenever people want to find purpose in God’s plans, they tend to gravitate to Jeremiah 29:11, which is great, but this verse just hit me because it’s basically saying that no matter what, the only thing we have to keep us going is God. No matter what, He is still more powerful than anything in our lives.
Although I’m still going through my usual routine, my perspective changed and I can see that God will still move in my life. I’m not dreading feeling stuck, because I know something else is coming. It’s still hard but the hope is much greater. So I’m starting over with whatever plans God throws at me and I’m excited to see them happen.