I’ve been in sort of funk lately. I blame it on being tired all the time but I’ve slowly come to realize that I just don’t know what to write. I could also blame it on writer’s block, but it’s not, it’s more of not feeling like my words make sense or are entertaining enough. I don’t feel creative. It’s always been my struggle because I never felt creative and felt that writing didn’t stack up with those who draw, play instruments, and do something that I felt was truly artistic.
I always felt that God forgot to give me something to do when He was creating me. It’s insane because the Bible tells all about God as a creator from beginning to end. He created us and there’s nothing in this world that can compete with that kind of creativity. I mean, think of all the detail it goes into creating a planet, humans, and animals. But still here I was just feeling like there is nothing I could do.
I’ve always liked words. Writing is something that I could always easily do and I enjoyed doing. But it was always weird to say that was my talent when someone is talking their long practices or awards won. It’s like I got the short stick of talents. It’s still so hard to embrace but God gave me writing for a reason. This blog is a strange platform and although many people think it’s a hobby, for a moment, the words I string together will be read by someone and just maybe, it can make a difference.
I was always traumatized, in a good way, by 1 Timothy 4:14, which says, “ Do not neglect your gift, which was given you through prophecy when the body of elders laid their hands on you.” I always felt that I would wake up and have even less talent than before and live an even less colorful life. But words, my words and my writing, they are what I can get creative with.
One of my favorite quotes by Erwin Mcmanus is, “To create is to reflect the image of God. To create is an act of worship.” I could just sit and mope and wish I could be a talented pianist, but that would be a dishonor to God. Not many have the patience to write or find it a bore, but I know that I can use this to further the plans God has for me.
This post is for me, but it can also be for you. Your talent can be unconventional but it doesn’t make it any less amazing. There are times where you’re just going to feel down and just hit a wall but your talent means something. I still need to grow in my talent, but I know that God gave it for my reason and I need to keep making things because I am creative because of my creator.